Damn Whitesnake Song....

OK.... this is an addendum to what was already written....

In reference to the title above.... It's a semi-famous 'power ballad' from the '80s, performed by the semi-famous hair band called WHITESNAKE... the video starred the vixen-ish Tawny Kittain (spelling?) and she was dancing on a couple of Jaguars in the mists.... Have you guessed the song yet? Figured it out? C'mon! I know that damn song is just rattling around in your head - bounding around your skull like a bug inside the car, smacking against the windows, trying to get out.... Come on.... Come on.... Go with it.... you know it....

You don't know it?!? OMG!!! How young are you?!? DO some research.... it's called "IS IT LOVE".... or is it "IS THIS LOVE"?... um.... damn.... "Is this love, that I'm feeling... Is this the love that I've been dreaming of...." anyway....

I would guess to say that I am NOT in love, but it is quite possible that I may be falling? He's got so many good points - so many pros, as it were, that I can't seem to find the cons - except maybe the people he works with.... he's a criminal defense attorney... anyway....

But, I think that the feeling is quite mutual.... I get all sorts of vibes from him all the time.... we end up seeing each other almost every day - usually we walk our dogs...

Damn.... I just had dinner and a glass of wine and I had all these thoughts running through my head and now I'm almost afraid to put them down - fearing that if he sees/reads/heres these thoughts, he run scared...

we've both been talking about how we want to take this all really slow, but... sometimes, when you find a good thing, it is really hard to move slowly when your heart and head says ... S C R E A M S .... "Hurry, Hurry, HURRY!!!! Don't let this fantastic catch get away and swim into somebody else's net!!!"

So... what am I supposed to do at this point?!? I don't want to rush things and get someplace neither of us is ready to be, but I don't want to poke along the road of love and miss out on a good thing....

Thoughts? Feelings? Well wishes?

Been quite a while....

Ya know.... it really sucks when you start to do something and then forget about it for a while and then come across it again after a few months.... Like Blogger.... I forgot ALL ABOUT IT.... my bad....

So, where to start....?

How about a chronological listing of what's been happpening?

Let's see... last I published was in March?!? YIKES!!!!

Well, a friend came and visited from Denver... we went to Disneyland with some other pals.... also did a few Tom of Finland Foundation volunteer events.... Um.... There have been a couple of trips to Vegas.... mom and I bought a motor home.... um..... Wow.... We went camping a few times in the motorhome.... did a few PT Cruiser shows....

Bullet got hit while towing behind the motorhome (a Bounder) on a trip for a PT Cruiser event... He was in Vegas forf nearly a month, getting about $3500 worth of repairs to the driver side... Got him back, found some work they needed to complete... took him back to them for touch ups and completions....

The first PT show after the accident saw the introduction of PT BEAR*NUM - the new look and theme for Bullet....

Nibbler is doing well.... we've been doing well together after I finally got rid of the loser boy that was in my life.... see my blogs posted over at MYSPACE for more (www.myspace.com/leathermancraig).... That will also give you more updates on what's been going on with me....

I've also met a new person that I'm thinking things may be going beyond friendship with.... I'll post more as it moves along... I don't want to push anything... just taking it day by day, doncha know....

Well, I guess that's enough for now.... yeah, I know - it's short and minimal, and after so long away...

Drama!

The world is too full of drama.... I just can't get over the amount of drama that we all have to deal with in our lives.... It's just so damn annoying....

• drama - 'national' and 'world' dramas to deal with - our 'president' and his war for oil.. OOPS! I meant War on Terror... Yeah, right... a pissing contest that his daddy couldn't finish... whatever!
• drama in the courtroom - Michael Jackson, Scott Peterson, Robert Blake, and so on... WHO CARES?!?
• drama in our commutes - car A cuts off car B. car B pulls out a gun and shoots at car A, but hits car C in the process...

Then, we've all got our personal dramas to deal with....

Breaking up -

I've been seeing this guy for over 2 years now... in November 2003, he moved in with me... Things have been going BADLY ever since.... our sex life has been just about nil - and it wasn't all that much to begin with.... our financial problems have piled up, as he wasn't working for the LONGEST time and even now only holds down a few part time jobs.... he can't even pay his OWN bills, let alone have enough to help me pay OURS... So, I've cut it.... he's moving out - soon.... I can't deal with the BS anymore.... he's got a new 'Daddy' to help train him... if you're not familiar with the term, look up any BDSM or Leather blog or chat room and ask what a Daddy is... So, at least, now, that's one drama out of my life... soon!

I get drama at work.... a person I work with gets ticked off if I don't do what this person wants me to do when this person wants me to do it... heaven forbid I should have OTHER STUFF that I have to work on... and this person isn't even my boss or anything!!! UGH!!! I hate when I get little notes or voice mails asking me if I've done this or that - when I only got the information 5 minutes ago!!! I've got other crap to deal with and sort through - like checking the inbound trading docs from over 300 vendors!!! Plus, tesing our outbound and inbound docs for a handful of other vendors.... YIKES!!!

I get drama from my friends.... for my b-day (about a month ago!), a friend of mine told me that he'd get me and 2 friends into a certain MAJOR theme park in SoCal.... So, I asked a friend of mine from Colorado (who will be in town) and another from San Diego... Now, we're ALL into leather and bdsm type stuff.... Well, my SD buddy can't make it - he whored around too much in Palm Springs last weekend (and you know I'm jealous, A....) and can't afford the weekend up here... OK, fine... So, I asked another local friend to come along, as he's also into leather stuff... But, another friend found out and I had said that I didn't ask this other friend because he is SO not into leather stuff.... so he wouldn't enjoy himself around us.... Now, the OTHER friend is all pissed off at me because I didn't invite him and I said that he wouldn't have as much fun with us as the first friend would.... ARGH!!!! DRAMA!!!!

I'm so damn sick and tired of drama... I'm done with people who think that they're the ONLY ones that should matter and can't take even the slightest issue without blowing it all out of proportion!!! I'm DONE!!!!

A New Blog....

A new day - a New Blog....

I got turned on to this site by my friend, La'akapu - a pal I met on MySpace... I've got my blog over there, too, so check it out, if you get the chance.... just look for me in MySpace....

So, I'm enjoying this so far - although it seems a bit limited - like you have to PAY for a service in order to be able to publish some personal information - like a picture, stats, etc.... We'll see what I do with this.... The more I can do for free, the happier I am....